Hola

Alrighty. I've shopped more in the past few days than I have throughout my entire 25 years.... AND I AM NOT DONE YET!!!!! I could seriously cry. I have spent waaaay too much money on things that I NEED.... with a couple hundred more looming in front of me. Yes, I will be making more money now than what I was before, but my first paycheck doesn't come until the 15th of September. Not including the gas that my truck is going to guzzle in the upcoming weeks (which I can't even begin to think about), I have a $400 (and that is WITH a discount) hotel bill that I have to pay my first week down there and not be reimbursed for. I hate to use a line that has been WAAAY over used throughout the years, but I must.... AM I MADE OF MONEY????

It is just starting to hit me. I leave in a matter of days... 4 and a half to be exact. I'm exhausted and not sleeping, 'cause I can't shut off my brain when it is time to go to sleep. It's finally hitting me just how much is riding on this.... and it is scaring the hell out of me. I'm frustrated because I normally use writing/reading as a stress reliever. I disappear into my own little world for a few hours and escape the things that are clogging up my brain. But, I have no time to do that now. I still have too many boxes still packed from the return trip, not even close to being packed for the upcoming trip... which will last 3 months before I will be close enough to even have my parents bring me stuff. HOW do you pack for 3 months in a climate that you are not even vaguely familiar with? My parents live in a town, nicknamed Flood City. The sun shines here 2 times a year. Once in January and once in December. It is always raining here... and if it isn't raining, it's foggy or hazy. The humidity will be a little worse there than it is here... but this place is COLD compared to Georgia. Yet, what is it going to be like in November there? 'Cause I'll be there through the beginning of November. And I only have so much room to pack stuff. UGH!

I am really excited that this is all happening. I've been waiting for it for so long. But as long as I've been waiting for it, I am no where near prepared to get to it. What am I going to do about it? What I always do... Suck it up and give it my all. And hope that it is enough. Well, I'm off to run..... again. Wish me luck on not collapsing this time.