Can I call it, or what?

Well, it's not concrete yet, 'cause of course I haven't heard anything, but it looks like I was right on the money. He has yet to call about the plans for this weekend. I'm not surprised. Why should I be? It is not like past behavior supports any other result. I struggled a lot last night, trying to figure out how to keep my head on straight. I wrote a letter last night. 8 pages long. Writing it showed me just where I am where this situation is concerned. It was a huge wakeup call. I'm still being pulled in 2 separate directions, that is abundantly clear by the amount of contradictions in the letter. But, I am beginning to see things that I was completely blind to before, or at least in denial about.

My last rehab was this morning. I'm really sore, but all should be good by tomorrow *crosses fingers* It'll be a busy day today and tomorrow getting everything ready for the party tomorrow night. And, I am determined to enjoy the party no matter what.

If I don't get a chance to blog tomorrow, I hope that everyone has a wonderful New Years and I'll see you next year.