... 2...

2 more days left. Tomorrow at midnight, I am no longer an employee here, and boy does that make me happy!

Mom came over this morning and we got some more packing done and got the rug in one of the rooms scrubbed. P-Nut, your old room has never been cleaner. There isn't a thing on the floor! I will be remedying that soon. So that I can scrub the rug in the room I used. There is still waaay too much to do.

JD spent the day hiding in one of the kitchen cabinets, growling anytime anyone walked past it. He was less traumatized by the time I left the apartment for work, but by that time Mom had been gone for almost 2 hours. He was ok with my dad though, so hopefully this move won't be too bad for him. I don't want to leave him while I am in training, but it isn't like I have much choice in the matter. But, the boy has an attitude when I leave him for an 8 hour shift, let alone, leaving him for 6 months. He probably won't talk to me, or come near me for days, when I get back!!

Looks like my mom is going to miss my graduation from training. She's going on a trip with her church to Israel that leaves on the 31st of January. They'll be gone for about a week and my graduation is to be Feb 3. I hoping that my dad will at least make it. I know he's not going with her, 'cause he says there is no way in hell he would fly over an ocean. Just wait 'til he finds out that he's flying over half of one when I send them to Hawaii!

Come on back for the exciting conclusion tomorrow. I'm gonna try to post at the beginning of my shift with ... 1..., then again at the end of my shift (should there be time) to commemorate the end of my employment! WHOO HOO!!!

... 3...

Working on day 3. But man, was it tough to get here! I think I burned 3/4 of a tank of gas and lost 15 lbs, just sitting in that heat! Had I turned on the A/C I probably would have run out of gas (and I started out with almost a full tank in my truck)! There is a Kenny Chesney concert in Heinz Field tonight and I sat in that traffic from 2:30 until well after 4 - the time I am supposed to be at work. Only the 2nd time I was late since I started here 3 years ago. Traffic is still backed up and it is after 5. The concert was supposed to start at 4:30!!!! It is nuts! People in this city have no idea how to drive I swear. I've been to bigger events and traffic was never this bad... unless it was in this city! And damnit, I wasn't even sitting in the traffic to get to enjoy the concert! Which I would have loved to go to. Nooo, I have to sit in it to go to work!!!! But, I plan to spend most of my shift out of the office and listening to the music while walking around this place!

Last night was utter confusion here for the 'Pictures in the Park.' Not a single person here knew what was going on. That is what irritates me most about this place. The right hand never knows what the left hand is doing! And you would think that as security, we would be among the first to know what was going on, so we can be prepared for whatever may happen... No. We are always the last to know. For example, yesterday at 4:15, we received a call from the manager on duty for the event. "Why aren't the streets closed off? They were to be closed off at 4." OK, in order for us to go and close off the streets, SOMEONE NEEDS TO TELL US THAT THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE CLOSED AND WHAT TIME!!!! No one bothered to mention any of this to us... therefore, we didn't close them off. Absolute chaos. And that was only the beginning. I won't bore you all with the rest of the details.

I got no packing done this morning like I'd intended.... I slept in. Whoops. So now I have to get up around 7am tomorrow morning to get a head start before my mom shows up to help me scrub down my apartment. Packing and cleaning... 2 of my least favorite things to do! I'll be so happy when I am finally done with it... only to look forward to doing it again in 6 months, oh well.

Stay tuned for tomorrow's COUNTDOWN!

The Mythological God Test

The picture at the bottom is actually the Temple of Philae... a temple dedicated to Isis. Yes, I have an obsession with the Egyptian culture and have a tendency to go on and on about it.

Thoth Indeed, you are 70% erudite, 54% sensual, 50% martial, and 33% saturnine.

Thoth, the Egyptian God of secret wisdom, intellect, geometry and other forms of higher mathematics, was also the God of books and learning, of writing and numbers. And above all, he was the God of Magic. Indeed, he was the first and greatest of all magicians, said to create miracles from nothing by the mere vibrations of his voice alone. Within his main temple were said to be stored his books of magic which were open for the edification of all, providing those absorbing this magic understood its sacred content. Over the centuries, these books were said to have been carefully translated by various priests of secret orders until finally, the Greeks compiled them as the works of Hermes Trismegistus. One book most everyone is familiar with which is attributed to the mysteries of the God Thoth is the Tarot, considered to be an unbound book of symbols that may be read in an endless variety of sequences imitating the random nature of existence itself. The Fifteen Gods These are the 15 categories of this test. If you score above average in … …all or none of the four variables: Dagda. … Erudite: Thoth. … Sensual: Frey. … Martial: Mars. … Saturnine: Mictlantecuhtli. … Erudite & Sensual: Amun. … Erudite & Martial: Odin. … Erudite & Saturnine: Anubis. … Sensual & Martial: Zeus. … Sensual & Saturnine: Cernunnos. … Martial & Saturnine: Loki. … Erudite, Sensual & Martial: Lug. … Erudite, Sensual & Saturnine: Coyote. … Erudite, Martial & Saturnine: Hades. … Sensual, Martial & Saturnine: Pan.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

... 4...

It is time once again for the COUNTDOWN.... 4 more days of working here!!!! Tonight, they are showing movies in the park. Yay. I'm sooo excited. Or not. They are playing SharksTale and Jaws. Granted I liked Jaws... and I've never seen SharksTale (have no real desire to see it either), but it is the weekend and an evening at that. Meaning, the bosses should go home and leave us in peace! Don't you agree?

*this is an update: The bosses have managed to ruin my good mood. Today is going to be a long one! *chanting "just 4 more left, just 4 more left"*

P-Nut should be very happy. He didn't call me back. Not that I expected him to. And, I certainly ain't gonna lose any sleep over it.

*another update: He actually did call. I thought I was gonna fall out of my chair! Kept it simple. Basically, he said 'Congrats,' I said 'Thanks.' End of conversation.

There is so much left to do. Seems to be overwhelming at times. My stuff is almost all packed up to go to my parents, but I haven't even begun getting stuff ready for training yet. That plus trying to visit people, increase my workouts, make arrangements for a place to live and everything else I have to do. Just gotta take one thing at a time, but it seems like TOO much right now.

... 5...

Another down, 5 more to go! Yeah!

I can't believe it! Happiness is just not the word to describe it. For the next 3 days, each of the bosses will be here after hours because of events.... which doesn't make me a happy camper, but it could be worse. A worse senario... I could still be working for them with no hope in sight of leaving.... and boy would that be worse!

I'm, at the moment, waiting for my phone to ring with a scolding from P-Nut. When she checks her e-mail I am gonna be in some deep shit! Nah, I don't think it'll be that bad. When last we talked, I had decided that making a phone call to a guy who I thought was my friend would be a bad idea, eventhough I wanted to thank him for agreeing to talk with the Secret Servcie during my background check. But, I called him today. The safest way I could. I called from work, knowing when he saw that number he wouldn't answer... Not that he would answer if he saw my number either (at least he hasn't). Basically, 6 months ago, he fell off the face of the earth never to be heard from again... with no warning. No fight or argument, just one day... Gone. I've since realized that it is his loss. And, I am better off. Who needs friends like that. Life is too short to waste it worrying about those who could give a shit about you.

See Ya'll tomorrow for the next installment of the COUNTDOWN!

... 6...

Still doing a happy dance!! With 6 more days to go before I no longer have to come to work at this place, my smile keeps growing!!!

My mind is going in so many directions, and I just can't seem to concentrate on my WIP. It's sort of frustrating for me. I want to work on it, but my brain doesn't want to stay on that track. On the brightside though, I am making a little bit of a dent in my TBR pile (that I didn't even touch over the weekend like I wanted to, because of moving). One and a half down, more than I can count left..... I literally had 3+ boxes of books that I packed from my TBR pile alone. That is not counting the 9+ boxes of books that I have read in the last year and a half.... Yes, I bury my nose in a book at every opportunity.

I've started reading while I am excercising. I get so bored while I'm working out to get ready for this training that I have started taking a book with me and read while I'm running on the treadmill... I HATE THE TREADMILL! I need a change of scenery when I run. Did I forget to mention that I HATE TO RUN? I'm a good sprinter. And, I am pretty damn fast.... for a short distance. But in no way shape or form do I find long distance running the least bit fun. And, that is what I am supposed to be doing for training. By the end of it all, I am supposed to run 3+ miles... easily. Am I close? HA! No. Will I ever get close? I hope so. But I can tell you now, I ain't gonna enjoy it!


*UPDATE*

A BREAKTHROUGH!!!! I finally got more done on my WIP!!!!! 7 pages in a little over an hour!!!! Yeah me!!!! Now I just have to keep the momentum going!

The Countdown Begins.... 7....

Well, back at work for my final 7 days. I will finish up on the 1st of August... 1 week of 4-12. I think I had too much fun turning in my resignation letters this afternoon. I felt so good to finally be rid of this place. No more dealing with the inconsistancies and biting my tongue because, I'm just a "dumb girl," what do I know. Can't wait. The countdown has begun!

I want to thank everyone for their good wishes from my last post and I will do my best to keep my blog updated. I just hope that I will have some energy at the end of the day to do it (if I have access to the internet)!

I got really ambitious over the weekend and have packed up 90% of my apartment! I'm paying for it now. Though I think I lost about 10lbs, lugging all my stuff in the heat and humidity. It's amazing how much crap you can accumulate! I think the dumpster at my apartment building is half full with just my crap!

I'll be moving back home with my parents for the 3 weeks until training begins.... which is going to be weird to say the least! After not living with them full time since high school... 7 years!... it is going to be an adjustment. Kitty is going to be an interesting addition to the household. Considering he doesn't like my parents.... and they have to care for him for the next 6 months... that is going to be interesting. I'm just waiting for the call while I am in training that says, "Mylo (my brother's dog who lives with my parents... don't ask) is missing half an ear, both eyes and needed 47 stitches in his face! Come and get your cat!"

Maybe I should give a little background. Mylo is dumb as a stump (and I am not exaggerating, just ask P-Nut). My mom's cat (a siamese) was declawed. Mylo tried to chase her around the house, but ended up getting his butt whooped by the cat. Mylo is curious about JD and tries to get close. When he figured out that it hurt when JD swatted at him (unlike mom's cat), he started standing outside the room and simply barking at JD. Mylo is a beagle. Beagles have a bark that carries for miles!!!! He will stand there and bark at JD for HOURS! Drives everyone in the house absolutely nuts! It's really funny when Mylo tries to imitate JD and growl... the dog doesn't know how to growl, yes he's dumb. JD growls really loud and scares the dumb dog, who is twice JD's size. Stick 'em together and it is really amusing... until someone loses an eye! ;)
I'm thinking the parents are gonna have fun!

Couldn't Stay Away!!!! And I Have News!!!!

I just had to get on the internet and jump up and down!!!! I finally got the call from the secret service!!!! I leave on August 22 to start my training!!!! I am so excited, I just HAD to share!!!! I will be in training until February. I am hoping to have some internet access and be able to take my laptop with me. *fingers crossed* If that's the case, when I am not dead to the world, I'll probably get online and try to update my blog whenever possible. If it should happen to not work out that way, I've asked my friend P-Nut to give updates (hopefully I'll be able to at least call her and let her know what's up. 'Cause either way, I don't want my blog to be inactive until February!!!

The best part about it all..... I QUIT MY JOB!!!!! No more dealing with the arrogant players (who have NO reason to be arrogant... they suck!!!) and no more dealing with the idiots that run the stadium!!!!! WHOO HOO!!!

OK, I am so excited that I can't sit still, so I am going to go now. Another update will probably follow on Tuesday.



YEAH!!!!!!!

Blog Withdrawl

I don't know how I'm going to cope. In the last month, I have become addicted to blogging... and I am about to be away from it for 4 whole days! I don't know what I'm going to do!!! I guess I'll have a lot of reading and writing when I come back!!!!

Anyway, last night, I went out to dinner with P-Nut.... our eyes were bigger than our stomachs... but we had fun! I after stuffing myself to overflowing, we visited Target and talked each other into buying one of those CORE balls. Then, genius that I am, I went home and used it. *Note to self: Let food digest so you aren't ready to pop to start with before beginning to excercise with the ball!* I figure I can sit on the ball while I am working on the WIP or reading and get a workout all at the same time. Let's see if it works!

OK, I'm off to get my blog fix to try and tide me over for the weekend.... yeah right. But.... NO WORK UNTIL TUESDAY AT 4!!!! That's always a plus! See you then!

Oh, before I go, I just have a question for anyone who writes. I just read on a blog this morning that one person suggested writing more than one MS at a time. I was wondering if anyone else works on writing more than 1 MS at a time. I'd love to start working on my 2nd idea now, but I don't know if I'd be able to separate and compartmentalize. Too many characters talking at once I think would make me crazier than I already am. So, does anyone else write more than one MS at a time? If so, how do you keep your characters from talking over each other?

Yes.... I hear voices. :D

WOW! Amazing book!

Yesterday, I visited Jill Shalvis' blog... as I do almost daily... and there were a bunch of comments on her novella in the book Velvet, Leather and Lace. I couldn't wait to read it! And what was waiting for me in my mailbox when I got home from work yesterday? My shipment of books that I ordered that contained that very book! So needless to day, I didn't do anything but read last night.

Now, I have nothing against the other two authors who wrote the first 2 novellas for that book, but I couldn't wait to get to Jill's novella, so I started with that. Loved it! There was just the right combination of comedy and sexual tension. Wow, the sexual tension was intense there for a while! I was sucked right in and read it from start to finish. I highly reccommend that you pick up the book and read. I can't wait until I get home tonight! I'll start reading the first 2 novellas when I get home. If they are half as good as Jill's I figure I'll have them (well, at least 1, depending on the time I have) read by the time I go to bed tonight.

Jill's blog always has some funny anecdote about her family, herself, or her community. For a fun, lighthearted, pick me up, Check it out!

I think the power of positive thinking helped yesterday, so I'm gonna keep trying to keep a good attitude about work today. Hopefully it will be another okay day.

Better...

Well, I can happily say that I am in a better mood today... And I am keeping a positive attitude that my boss will NOT ruin my better day! I'm sure that hiding here in the Admin Building for the first half of my shift will help with that some. And, I plan to hide at the table, outside, checking bags and IDs for the second half of my shift... should the rain hold off. That should make for a fairly good day here at work.

I put off working on organizing my bills last night, so I guess I should do that tonight... maybe. I've lost my desire to clean and organize... should have finished it all at once, 'cause it always happens that way. I just get in a mood to clean and start.... I take a break, and then I don't want to finish. I keep finding stuff I would rather do (reading, writing, anything but cleaning) and can't get motivated to do the boring stuff.

I think tonight's excuse is going to be sleeping. My crazy cat decided that he wanted fed earlier than usual this morning, and started yapping at me to wake up around 2am. That's right, I said 2AM! If he wasn't so cute, I'd have to kill him. When I didn't get up just from him yelling at me, he repeatedly rammed his head into my nose... kitty has a hard head, OW! Then the claws came out, or should I say RAZORS! I finally gave up and fed him about 3am when he started nawing on my nose and fingers. I usually give him his soft food around 5:30 or so on Mondays and Fridays.... he ALWAYS has dry food in his dish, but he knew it was soft food day and wanted nothing to do with his dry food. The putz. I'm convinced that he was named after Jack Daniels (his name is JD), since he's always acting like he's either drunk or on something. But he's so cute! He has PINK fur around his eyes and it's just a little stripe that goes right around both eyes... it looks like he's wearing eyeliner. I'll have to post his picture sometime.... when I get a good picture of him.

I Apologize

First, I must say I'm sorry to P-Nut (she yelled at me last night on the phone for putting down my old stories in the previous blog). But, you have to admit, some of them were REALLY bad. I bow to thee O Great Swammi Of All Things Journalistic. Hehe.

I am having an off day today. Kinda feelin' sorta down... I hate those days. I've gotten pretty good at not putting myself down a lot, like I used to. But, days like this I seem to catch myself doing it again. The weird thing is that nothing really happened yesterday or today to put me in this mood.... maybe it was organizing my bills from the past few years... Yeah, that's it. I guess I shouldn't finish it when I get home. Right? Somehow, I don't think that excuse works.

I worked really hard to stop the vicious cycle that constantly kept me down. It makes me angry when I get in these moods and start doing it again. I wish it was as easy to believe the good stuff that you hear from others as it is to believe the bad stuff that you hear. And, why is it that it is always the bad stuff that you seem to repeat over and over to yourself?

I seem to do the worst writing when I am in these moods too, which is obviously not helping with the WIP. I tend to put my own insecurities into the heroine and then she gets on my nerves.... probably not the best when trying to motivate myself to keep writing her story.

Sometimes I wish that we all had drains in our heads (I know this is weird, but hear me out...). All the bad stuff we hear could be stuffed into a single compartment and then we can pull the drain and all those bad thoughts disappear as if we've never heard them.

Now I realize that everyone has qualities that aren't their best, and I do think that people need to hear criticism, because how else would we grow as people. There are things that we all need to change. What I am talking about is senseless criticism that has no purpose other than to make a person feel inferior and someone else superior. Like "You're fat" When in reality you are 5'11" and weigh 145lbs.... by no means fat. Or "You're ugly"... you hear stuff like that over and over and eventually you begin to believe it. Whether it has a basis in reality or not... it becomes YOUR reality.

All I am trying to say in all my ramblings is maybe we should all be a little more conscious of what we say and why we are saying it. You never know how much your opinion might mean to someone else, and how it may effect them in the long run.

Back again

Back on daylight once again. Can't say I'm having fun, but as it's the weekend, it could be worse.

I had a lot of fun working with my dad the last few days... but man, did he kick my ass. I am so sore. I got a great workout out of it. That's always a plus. Spent all days yeasterday pretty much sleeping. Slept late, took a nap, went to bed early.... my kind of day! But not real conducive to getting work done on the WIP. I didn't even read at all yesterday, just watched a little TV and snoozed. Talk about lazy.

This morning, my characters that are trying to get me to work on their story, rather than my WIP, told me their names... I think that they are trying to torture me. I'm stalled on my WIP and keep putting off working on it in favor of reading, 'cause I can't figure out where to go now... and then these new characters keep yakking at me. Before, I used to get my new ideas right as I was finishing the current story, making it easy to move right into a new story, but this one is making me nuts. I'm listening to what they are saying, taking a few notes and trying to push them to the back burner, until I finish with this one, but they keep popping up anyway.

I'm anxious to get this WIP finished, not only to start on my next story, but also so I can give my WIP to my friend to critique. I'm anxious to see if this one is as good as I think it is.. so far. I will say for sure that it is 1000% better than anything that I wrote in college. I'm surprised that my friend is even willing to read this after the torture I put her through in school. Poor P-Nut is probably blind by now. Nah... they weren't quite that bad, close but not that bad.

Anyhow, until next time. Ya'll have a good weekend.

Midnights are over :(

I am finishing my last midnight shift today :( I could cry. I am trying to keep on a happy face and think positively about the daylight shift that is quickly approaching. Trying is the key word in that sentence. I get to go home to my parents' house when I leave here this morning and work with my dad for a couple of days. Yeah! Going through a concrete wall with a sledge hammer is a great tension reliever. It is going to make for a 16 hour day today, which is tough, but I love working with my dad. It is more fun than work.

The challenge that I face today is that at 8:30pm tonight, my dad has a gig (he's a singer/songwriter... along with plumber/carpenter/master of all trades in general [ yes, I am Daddy's Girl, incase that wasn't blatent enough]). At 9, I will have been up 24 hours. But I REALLY want to go, 'cause with my work schedule, I haven't been able to see him play since April. I also have to be up early Wednesday morning... to work with him again, and he won't be done playing until 12:30. There just ain't enough hours in the day for me. More than likely, I'll forego the sleep and just go anyway. Maybe... and that's a BIG maybe ...I can squeeze in a couple hours of a nap between working with him and heading to the gig.... I hope. I don't know what I am going to do when I am in training across the country for nearly 6 months... or when I am living more than the 2 hours away that I live now. I guess I'll just have to wear out his CDs... but it's not the same!

The True You

Some is right, some is WAAAY off.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more open with you.

With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.

You think good luck might come your way, but if it does you'll be so surprised you'll burst out laughing.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you make opportunities to interact with many people through club activities or a hobby, then select someone you like.

Who's" the True You?

Oh Happy Day!!

I am now preparing to celebrate! My landlord stopped me in the parking lot yesterday ( I think it was yesterday... these midnights screw up my days big time) and told me that my neighbor is moving!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!! Now for those of you who happen upon this site and don't know, my neighbor is probably the worst neighbor imaginable. He and his live-in whatever of the month fight, CONSTANTLY. And yes, we're talking screaming and yelling at the top of their lungs for HOURS (sometimes from 3 in the afternoon until 6 or 7 in the morning). It's a wonder their voices last as long as they do. But, that is not the worst of it. They like to slam everything (including each other) against the walls. It had gotten to the point that I was so sick and tired of it, I told my landlord that if it didn't stop, I was going to have to call the cops. I mean, I could have my TV up as loud as it would go, and I still couldn't hear it over their yelling.... and the room my TV is in is pretty small! Well, apparently he didn't take too well to hearing that he needed to lower the volume... so he started threatening me. He never made good on any of the threats, which I was sort of looking forward to him trying... I just wanted an excuse to kick some ass. But, he is FINALLY leaving and I couldn't be happier about it!! Now I'll have a quiet place where I can work on my WIP in peace. YEAH!!!!

Only one problem with that last bit though.... this morning as I was trying to go to sleep, 2 more characters popped into my head. Main characters to an entirely new story. I jotted down brief descriptions of them and their histories... and a basic jist of the story. But, now I want to work on that one! I hate it when that happens... not to mention that I wanted to take 2 of my secondary characters in my WIP and write a story for them. Grrr. It's so frustrating when that happens! Especially when I know I still have a good bit left to write (not to mention re-write) on my current WIP, which keeps stalling out on me. But I really like the story and the characters in my WIP so I'll keep chugging along... I'm too damn stubborn to let a little writers block get in my way.

Also, another reason to celebrate, I got a letter from the Secret Service today.... more paperwork, but at least it's still moving.... as slow as molasses on the north pole in january, but moving nonetheless. On one hand, I want out of here NOW!! But, on the other hand, do I really want to be running 3+ miles everyday in 100+ degree heat in NM right now? The answer. ANYTHING is better than being here right now.

Well, I'm off to read a little bit. I'm reading Close To You by Christina Dodd at the moment, and I can't seem to put it down for long. It sucked me right in... I wanna know what happens next!

Question....

OK, all of the people I work with think it is very strange that I eat raw potatoes. I just peel, rinse, add a little salt and start munching, just like you would with an apple. They think I am nuts (well, that happens to be true, but I don't think it is for that reason ;P ). Does anyone else do this? Or, do you have something that you eat that everyone thinks is strange?

Raw potatoes aren't the only thing that I eat that people think is weird. I've been know to (often) eat large quantities of ice cream for breakfast (well, anytime of the day, actually). This is something that I picked up from my mom. She grew up next to a mom and pop ice cream shop and it is said that we have ice cream running through our veins 'cause we eat so much of it. With my eating habits, it's a wonder I don't weigh 700lbs.

So anyway, I was just curious about anyone else's strange eating habits. I look forward to hearing your answers.

Am I the only one out here??

I really do like working midnight shift, mainly because I don't have to see my boss. But, man sometimes you just wish that there were people around. Conversation tends to make the hours go by a little faster. And trust me when I say, some of the people I work with are not gifted in the art of conversation. But also, being as slow as it sometimes, I get a decent amount of down time, when there is nothing else to do, and can get a little done on my WIP.

I was struggling earlier with a couple of scenes (the one I was having trouble with a couple of days ago, and a whole new one) when I first started working on it. I changed a couple of things in the previous scenes and then started working on some new stuff, and finally it is starting to move along again. I got about 5 pages done tonight, in just about an hour, so I figure that was pretty good progress. It took me another hour to get through the mess that was the pervious scenes. It wasn't so much deleting stuff, more like adding a lot, because it was too abrupt for the impact it was supposed to have. I smoothed it out some, but I know it needs more work. And of the 5 pages I wrote, I know I am going to have to take some of it out, because it seems too repetative. But that will be a task for later, once I've walked away and can look at it with fresh eyes.

On my list of to do's today includes Grocery Shopping. I hate grocery shopping. Who am I kidding, I hate shopping, period. I usually end up putting it off until the only thing left in my refrigerator is hot sauce and butter (when I run out of Pepsi, is usually when I break down and go). But, I have decided that I will not put it off this time. I firgure as much time as I spend whining about having to go, I could be there and back with time to spare, so today I am sucking it up.

Happy 4th of July!!

I just wanted to say Happy 4th to all! I hope everyone is out enjoying a barbeque or lounging around. Unfortunately, I am at work, and not having the best of days, but I'm going to keep a happy face and enjoy what I can of the day.

Yesterday I accomplished my 10 page goal! So, that is one reason to have a good day. The boss left early, and I'll be up all night (getting ready to start midnights tomorrow) so I hope to get a good bit more done, along with a good long read. Can't wait to get home and get started.

Anyway, time to go rangle the fireworks watchers and keep them from jumping the fence. Wish me luck. And, enjoy your day!!!

I am throwing a party....

AND EVERYONE IS INVITED!!!!!!! Whoo Hoo!!!

That scene I was struggling with last night has written itself today!!!!! And it actually sounds pretty good. YEAH!!!!! *happy dance* And I was able to write a couple more pages. I'm just taking a break for a minute to let my brain settle (it's going in too many directions to write in a logical order). 2 pages down and I am hoping to write at least 8 more tonight before I shut it all down. With as many ideas as I have going, that 8 might increase.

OK, I just happened to catch a news story about some missile that they are shooting into space at a comet just for the hell of it... they want to see what it is made of to "discover the origins of the universe." OK, have they never watched a movie? I can just imagine (and yes, I have a very overactive imanination) the impact of the missile knocking the comet off course and sending it in our direction. Either that or piss it off to the point it comes after us. We have all this technology and yet we just shoot missles and blow shit up for the fun of it? For a couple of pictures of it blowing up?

OK enough of my rambling for now, back to work on the WIP.

Soap Opera blues.... I hate that!

At work, as usual and bored out of my mind!!!!!!!!!!!! I tried to work on my manuscript a little, but I ended up doing more editing than new writing. Granted, the editing needed doing, and I am struggling with the conversation that I am trying to write at the moment. Everything I write seems like it is coming out of a soap opera (a bad soap opera at that), not the feel I'm looking for in the scene. My heroine is confronting a man who has threatened her in the past, and who she thinks is behind her current problems. Everytime I write something, I end up erasing it back to the first line, again. I have even tried writing it from his POV, but that sounds even worse. I am tempted to drop the whole scene, but it is sort of a defining moment; she's refusing to be a victim anymore, taking charge and standing her ground. And it needs to involve this guy, 'cause he is at the root of her most current issues. Grrr. It's really aggravating me. I've even been tempted to write myself a little note about what in general I am trying to convey with the scene, then move on to the next one, but my heroine isn't telling what she wants to do next. I've got two big options to choose from, but she won't pick which one she wants yet.

But, I've taken a breather to write this, and I think that instead of working on it some more tonight and just irritating myself even more, I'll just read a little bit and get away from it.... you know how it all becomes clear when you walk away and let it drop for a little while.

Here's to hoping for a good weekend

*fingers crossed* I am hoping that this is going to be a great weekend.... eventhough I have to work the whole weekend, including the 4th. My boss was gone by the time I got to work today and I should not have to see him until Monday, because there is a game... damnit.

I'm starting to get real impatient waiting for the call to tell me that I can quit my job here and leave for training, the last step left for my employment with the Secret Service. As with everything with the government, it takes forever. But at this point, I am only waiting for them to fill a training class. Hell, I'd gladly take the training classes all by myself, if it would mean getting away from this place.

I came real close to quitting last week, and when I told my parents about it, they said (as they have since this whole Secret Service thing started), if I quit here, it will look bad on my resume, especially when I am this close to the new job. My argument last week was, "Which is worse, looking bad on my resume for quitting, or looking bad on my resume for an assault arrest?" I was nearly to the point of walking over to my boss and knocking him flat on his rear. And I would have REALLY enjoyed that.

It is always the big joke among the guys in my office that we should come up with a comic book about the stuff that goes on here. We also know that everyone who would read it would think that we had to be making this stuff up... what is really sad is that we would not have to exaggerate at all. If only we were.....Except it ain't funny to me at the moment.

I've lost the ability to laugh at the stupidity of my boss(es). Deep breathing isn't helping. Counting to 10 (or 1000) isn't helping. And, I can't always walk away, 'cause someone always has to stay in the office (24/7), so if it's just me and my boss (whose desk is in our office.... But NEEDS it be elsewhere), I can't leave. Anyone have any other coping skills that might help me? Knocking him on his rear would certainly make me feel better, but I would probably get in some trouble for that one.

Well, I guess I oughtta get back to work. Hope everyone has a great holiday weekend.