Any and All Opinions Appreciated - WIP First pages

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Not Yet..

I'm sure ya'll are SOOOO disappointed, but I won't be posting the first few pages of my WIP today... maybe I'll get around to it tomorrow. But, I just saw that there is a movie coming out with the same title as what I had in mind for my WIP. Grrr. I don't know if that would have to change once I would get it published. Hell, who knows if it'll be any good and someone would want to publish it. The titles are the same but different though. The movie is "Lucky You." My WIP is "Lucky U." It's the name of the family ranch of the hero.

But, we have some GREAT news. I finally got a call that the Secret Service is finally going to pay for my knee surgery. Let's see, I was initially hurt in September, really hurt in October and under the knife in December. Any way you look at it, it is 6+ months since the situation occurred. I've been paying bills since February and my insurance company has been hounding me, because they want reimbursed because it was filed under a workman's comp claim. It has been a royal pain in the ass trying to get them to look at my case. Thankfully a really wonderful woman, named Carol, in the Employee benefits division of the Secret Service has been helping me throughout the past few months. I'm sure she was plenty tired of hearing my voice on the other end of the phone every couple weeks, but finally it has all worked out!!!

I got in 8 hours today and looks like I'll be working tomorrow too. I even managed to get a little sun on my arms. That'll happen when you are digging a ditch in the sweltering heat and bistering sun. I'm even drinking some water now. And, anybody who has ever been around me knows I hate water and NEVER, EVER drink it. BLECH!!!!

Dad is playing tonight, but I'm not sure if I am going to go. I'm getting really tired of sitting in the bar all by myself the whole time. But, either way, I need a shower, so see ya.

Good news abounds!!!

Well, sort of. At least there is some better potential than before.

First is that I get to work tomorrow!!! Yeah! It also looks like I'll be busy most of the week working. Which is a load off of my mind.

Then, I've been wanting to work on my WIP a lot lately, but can't seem to motivate myself to work on it. My mind just hasn't been in the right place for writing lately. But, I picked it up a little today. It looks like I may be close to moving past this difficult part of the story. I just haven't been able to figure out how to get out of this particular scene. I know, in general, what the next few scenes will be... so what I should probably do is just skip this part and come back to it later, but it will irritate me if I do that. I like to have a solid place to start from.

I'm also debating. I thought about posting a couple of the first pages on my WIP here, just to get a little feedback. See if the first few pages makes anyone want to read more, ya know? But, I don't know if anyone would be interested in reading it. I may do it anyway, just to see if I get any opinions. I think that first few pages are pretty strong, but I would like to hear some feedback from someone else. Check back tomorrow and you may see it ;) And, I welcome any critiques, good or bad.


I also put in another application yesterday. This one is out in Denver, CO. Kind of a far distance, like 3/4 of the way across the country, but it would be a neat place to start. There was another opening in Hawaii. I could like working there, but it would probably cost an arm and a leg to get my truck over there, and I would be hard pressed to survive without my precious truck. I love my truck! That and the pay vs the cost of living, is basically I would be living in a box. And, the box would be in the middle of town, no where near the beach. It's pretty sad when you couldn't afford to put your cardboard box on the beach.

I've been having trouble sleeping lately, and what sleep I get isn't restful, 'cause I've been having really weird dreams. Well, I'm still not sleeping, and still having weird dreams when I do, but something did change. The character in the dream. I got rid of one REALLY bad character, and replaced it with another. This one is no where near as harmful to my mental health, but I still don't want that character in there. One character is the king of all jackasses; the other might as well be on Pluto. I would really love to get some restful sleep.... someday.

In wonderful news that doesn't involve me at all, my cousin just got engaged. Her fiance is a wonderful guy. I'm really happy for her. He proposed during a walk on the beach in NC, where they are on vacation. They've been together for a few years now. So a HUGE Congrats to them. I think that she picked a winner. And, he certainly picked a great girl. Here's to hoping for a HEA.

Back to work this week, FINALLY! I actually managed to get around 32 hours in. I worked my ass off too. We, of course, have Monday off due to the holiday, but it is a mystery to me whether or not I'll get hours next week. I'm really hoping that I do... so is my bank account ;)

The only really bad thing about this week, (well, it has actually been the last few months, but it is compounded now because I'm using so much energy working) is that I'm not sleeping. What sleep I am getting is definately not restful either. It's really beginning to get on my nerves. I'm tired all the time, yet, when I try to sleep, it never comes.

I plan to have a nice relaxing weekend. I might go to the drive-in to see a movie (if I can get away... my parents hate it when I go to the movies by myself, but they throw a fit if I try to go to the drive-in alone). If I get to the drive-in, they are playing Poseidon and DaVinci Code. Peanut said she wasn't thrilled with the DaVinci Code when she saw it, but it is cheaper to go to the drive-in than to the theater, and you get 2 movies for just a few dollars vs paying an arm and a leg for just one movie.

Anyway, I hope you all have a great holiday weekend. Enjoy!

It's Confirmed....

My surgeon is a DOLT!!! The man doesn't have a set of brain cells to rub together. I went to see him today for my post op appt. I told him that I was still having the same problem, even after the sugery that was to correct it. He wanted to put me on 2 different medications. One will seriously alter my body chemistry and the second to counteract the first one. Tell me, what is the point of taking the first only to take another that will counteract it. I know some are probably thinking that the doctor knows what he is talking about, but no. The change in the body chemistry is what is supposed to "cure" this problem (btw, it is only a temporary fix). So, if you take something to counteract the change in the body chemistry, what is left? Plus, this stuff would increase the potential for osteoporosis (however it is spelled). My mom has an issue is osteo-arthritis. She is 50 and has the bones of a 65 year old. She was on a variation of this drug at one point. I'm sorry, but I have no desire to be practically crippled in a matter of years. She was on this pill 10 years ago. There is a big age gap there with when she took it and when I'm taking it. If I react the same way to this medication, I'll be 35 and barely able to get around without intense pain. NO THANK YOU!!!! I'll deal with the pain now. Just keep me stocked with pain killers and I'll be all good. I found a drug that is supposed to help with my condition. He wouldn't prescribe it to me. 'Cause he didn't think it would help. Everything that I have read and all accounts I have read have said that it had made a big difference. I'm going to ask my regular doctor for the prescription. She at least has a brain in her head and listens when I talk.

In good news, I got to work a little today. When I got home from my doctor appointment, my dad called. He needed help putting in a waterheater. So, I got an hours worth of work in today and I should have hours the rest of the week. YEAH!!!! Finally!!!!! That makes me happy! Maybe it will keep my brain busy for a while.

Why do I need that? Well, because my brain is being uncooperative at the moment. It has, for some odd reason, resorted to some old habits, and not good ones I might add. Things are popping in there that SHOULD NEVER be there EVER again!!!!

Well, I'm off. My Sabres are in the playoffs, and they are playing right now!!!

Finally some good news!!!

I am finally getting back to work! They finally have some work for me with my dad's business. They say I should have work everyday this week!!!! I am so excited to have something to do for a while. I have to go to the doctor's office tomorrow, so I have to take Monday off, but I'll be working the rest of the week!!!!!! YEAH!!!!

I read 2 and a half books yesterday, 1 and a half the day before. As soon as I finish here, I'll be picking up another book. Ya know, I haven't been able to afford to buy any books lately (which is probably a good thing considering the size of my TBR pile), but I haven't even made a dent in the shelves that I have full of TBR books, let alone the boxes I have waiting to fill the shelves when they have room. It's crazy!!!! Bot, one good thing is that I have filled up one box with books I have read, so now I get to go and find another box to fill and can store this one away with the rest of the boxed of already read books. I think that makes 12 boxes of already read books since 2004. Damn, I read a lot! Good thing I read fast!

Hope your weekend was a good one!

I just feel blah.

My parents are getting worried about me. I guess I would too if I were them. I have virtually spent the last 6 months in my room. Most of which is spent in bed. But, I'm a homebody. I would rather stay at home than go out some place, and my room is my hideaway. I've gained a little weight and really have no desire to do anything about it. I don't look much heavier, and at the time I came home from GA, I probably could have used a few extra pounds on me. But, the biggest thing is that I can't get motivated to do anything. I keep saying, 'I'm gonna get working today on the WsIP. I'm gonna straighten up my room. I'm gonna....' Yet, I never get there. Some of it is that I'm still not working. I keep putting out applications, to no avail. I'm frustrated. I need a release. That is normally my writing, but I just can't make myself do it. I have read a few books the last few days, and that is another way I release, but it is more just a way to escape. I escape into the reality of the book, away from my reality. Some people use alcohol and drugs to escape their reality, I use books.

Well, I don't want to bore ya'll with my ranting now. So, I'm off. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

Back to the grind.....

Home again. Granted it is nice to be back in my nice big, long bed, but I was a little sad to come back. The only thing that I don't like about being at the cabin is the beds. I am close to 6' tall. I swear their beds aren't even 5' long. Even my shorter relatives complain that they are falling off of the bottom of the bed!

We went to the spa on Sunday and had massages! It was wonderful! If I could afford it, I'd get a massage every day! It can be so relaxing. JD screamed his head off when I got back today. And, he hasn't moved from my side since I walked in the door. He's such a cutie.

In not so happy news, it has been discovered that my last surgery did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! I'm having the exact same problem I was having prior to the surgery. If I'd known this was the result, I never would have gone through the pain or expense of it at all!

In other news, there is a possiblity that I may *crosses fingers* get to work either tomorrow or Thursday..... if I am really lucky maybe both. Friday, Dad goes in to the hospital for some more tests to figure out why he passed out all those weeks ago, and Monday, I get to go in and see the surgeon for release, so those 2 days are out, but I really am hoping to get back on a regular schedule for work at this point. I'm still waiting to hear on the latest applications that I put out and still have a few that are ready to go. I'm getting frustrated with the whole thing, but I realize it takes time. I'm just tired of sitting around doing nothing.

Wish me luck with it all. I hope ya'll had a great weekend and hope that your week is even better!!!

Vacation!

I leave tomorrow to go back to the retreat cabin in WV. I can't wait!! I have a massage scheduled for Sunday afternoon! I really need this vacation, which is probably hard for most people to believe considering that I've been off work since my last surgery. But, I really need to get away. Unfotunately, my parents are also going, so I won't get away from that stress.

I got a few more applications out this week, so I'm hoping to hear from someone soon. I'm getting desperate. I love working with my dad, but I need a job with consistent hours. I need a job where I can count on the money, so I can MOVE OUT!!! A couple of the places I applied to are still in PA, but they are a few hours away. There is one in OH, too. There are a few more that I am still researching. They are in states all over the place. A bunch in CA and AZ. My biggest problem with those is the cost of living there. I would need to make like 75K/yr, just to live in a cardboard box where some of these companies are. And, none of them pay that much. I don't have any disposable income at the moment that I could live off of for a while if I would go out there. My school loans take out a huge chunk of my earnings every month. That's pretty sad since, IMO, my degree isn't worth the paper it is printed on. But, that is a whole other rant.

Well, I'll see ya'll when I return next week.

Not Fair!

I had a great night last night. I went over to P-Nut's house and we had pizza and played video games. I had a great time. I got home around midnight and ended up staying up until close to 4am. I finally fell asleep. It was a good sleep too. When I was (rudely) woken up this morning, I hadn't moved at all since I fell asleep. The covers were exactly where they were when I fell asleep. The pillows never moved. That is a feat. I was in such a deep sleep. It was great!

At 5:45am, my dad let the dog outside, when his business partner and employee were sitting in an unfamiliar car in the driveway. Mylo went crazy and barked his damn head off for 10 minutes!!!!! My dad didn't even make an attempt to shut him up! Let me explain; Mylo is a beagle. If you've ever hear a beagle bark, you know it is louder than hell and carries for miles. Mylo is that times 10. I was literally 3 seconds away from getting out of bed and walking outside in my night gown (which I have t-shirts longer than my night gown), getting in my truck and running the damn dog over. This was the first decent sleep I'd had since they put me under for my surgery! Not even 2 hours!!! And, to top it off, I COULDN'T FALL BACK TO SLEEP!!!!! Lord knows, I've been trying to get back to sleep since.

I've got a day of running around to do, and I get to do it on 2 hours of sleep. Lucky me. Enough of me bitching. I'm off to get ready to go shopping..... I HATE SHOPPING!!!... and take care of my errands. Hope your day started out better than mine.

I feel old.

I'm not sleeping well to start with. And, I am sleeping hours more than normal. Figure that out! I've been averaging 2 long naps per day, but the sleep I am getting is not restful. I'm always tired and it really sucks!

I went out last night despite being tired. Dad was playing last night, so I went along to be the roadie. Except everytime I tried to pick something up I got yelled at, since it has only been 2 weeks since the surgery.

Today, (and this is what really makes me feel old) I am going to a graduation party for a girl I used to babysit.... her COLLEGE graduation!!! Her little brother graduates from high school this year too! It's crazy!

I really need to find a real job soon too. Granted, I love working with my dad, doing the plumbing and heating thing, but I really need to get a real job and get out of the house. I need my own space. I lived alone for too many years to enjoy living at home with my parents again! I guess it's true, the hardest job you'll ever have is looking for a job.

Enough of my moaning and complaining. Hope everyone is having a great weekend.

Well, the reason I haven't written much in the last while is 'cause I have nothing to write about. I'm bored. There isn't much going on around here. I am going to attempt working next week. A little earlier than the doctor reccommends, but I just can't sit around any more. I'm tired of it. It's so bad that I almost went shopping yesterday. Yes, shopping! I HATE shopping with a passion. And, I don't have the money to buy anything anyway, so I'd just be walking around, looking at crap. And, I do mean crap. We live in podunk and there isn't a decent mall for 50 miles. I'm not paying that much in gas just to walk around and look at crap I can't buy.

I took my parents' computer into a computer guy to fix it (I couldn't seem to find the problem myself). The guy worked on it for a while, and it is now fixed, but he can't figure out what he did to fix it. 'Cause there was no problem with the RAM (which was what we thought it was) and no problem with the hard drive. But, it works now, so who cares. Now I just have to figure out what is wrong with my tower.... don't ask. My family has no luck with computers.... except one, the one with Windows 3.1, that's right 3.1.

Well anyway, I'm off to be bored some more. No sense in boring you too. ;)